Day 39- Acceptance and Change

I started this 42 day journey because I wanted to change my life. I wasn’t happy. I felt stuck.

The past 38 days have been incredibly impactful and things in my life have begun to shift in meaningful ways. I no longer feel stuck. I feel my life moving forward in the direction that I want it to go. The most interesting thing about this is now that I’ve gotten my life unstuck, now that I feel the momentum, I recognize my own resistance to this momentum. I wanted change, but I recognize now how uncomfortable change can feel- even though it’s wonderful, it’s uncomfortable. Changes in life are scary and uncertain. It’s been difficult at times to accept the changes, even though I know they’re what I asked for. Sometimes I have to remind myself “This is what you’ve been asking for,” while my old self feels the fear and pain of dying. I have to move through that fear and pain (mental, emotional, even sometimes physical) before I realize that on the other side of it I’m still here. This process and the feeling that I survived, gives me energy and strength to keep on opening up and accepting new things into my life- because they keep coming!

What I know now so clearly is that opportunities to change will always be available for me but I have to be open to them. Also, in order to change, first there has to be acceptance. I think my primary job is acceptance. Once I accept what is, the change comes to me…and my job is still acceptance. It’s like acceptance creates a vacuum that brings in more life to accept!

Thanks for reading.

Rosalynn